After months of recovery and sickness and discomfort and pain
my emotions turn to anger depression and tears once again
life throws thoughts and strange feelings my way
as I close a door once again
after anger upset has caused dissaray
my mind thinks of past and happier days
someone who loved me and shed many a tear
whom I loved dearly but cant help me or get near
through my depression emotional shutdown
and tears around me who I have let go
as she cant fully understand me
since my cancer and all my surgery
and treatment you see
I am diferent now and not happy
treatment I have changes my life around me
attached to a machine which is my kidney
my tears flow each day like a little stream
as ive upset people who once loved me dearly
through words in anger and emotions deep from with in me
all I want in my life is happiness you see
to love be loved and to return to normality
and be at peace with my self and love humanity
I am the pompey poet 