My thoughts my feelings my life cancer depression and my thanks to all those who have helped me

After many moments over many years

full of heart ache and full of tears

depression and cancer have all been with me

I sometimes wonder what life is showing me

through those darkest moments we often see

I wish the sun would shine on me

I wish it would lift my spirit up and help me

to fulfil my dreams to stand up and sing

to show the world something of me

and bring a smile through words I sing and say

to stand up and be counted in life today

and show that I am back and here to stay

from all that illness that nearly took me away

will never put me through all that again

I sing and smile at you with some beautiful words of tune

to let my vocal chords have there say

in a warm and beautiful way

britains got talent has listend to me

I learnt from that moment auditioning you see

it brought out something special in me

I may not be there yet and there will be many days

of practising along the way

and go for another audition one beautiful day

they told me what they thought slight touch of nerves

affected my singing you see

but they liked my performance and have encouraged me

to go away practise and reapply too a slight touch of nerves is affecting you

a little more confidence is what you need

when they told me to reapply a smile went through me

at last someone in life sees something in me

please god listen to my prayers and help me

as I want to sing live and say thanks all Queen alexander hospital Renal team

who gave me a second chance and removed my cancer infected kidneys

who brought out the figthing spirit from inside me

several months have past since that day

I  was told I had cancer in both my Kidneys

and they have to be removed as matter of urgency

It had grown in both of them silenty over five years

it lay working its evil way inside of me

I had no idea what it was doing to me as symptons werent showing

I thought I was fit and healthy

then along came that dreadful day when I got told that awful news and we must act quickly

went through major surgey four weeks later it was out of me

then recovery I started to fight my way through

thinking of Douglas Bader his spirit in his day too

I to had been in RAF and this inspired the fight within me

I tried to stand it hurt very painfully after having your stomach cut right open

there was a challenge over next couple weeks in front of me

phyisoes turned up and said come on kevin lets try and see

Per Adva Ad Astra the moto of the RAF I spoke and thought back

as I raised my self to my feet you wont beat me

onwards and upwards through this battle

I fought back with vengance with all my energhy

I am back to stay  and going through recovery

now I want to say a special thankyou to all of you

by getting through to live auditions and sing a song one day

and say thankyou to all those wonderful people and friends and family and girlf friend to as she has gone through a lot

off Illness and surgery to we went through it together and supported each other to and Mike whose always been there for me a friend like no other very special indeed.

the sisters and nurses of  g6 g9 wards and Renal team and Havant Renal team Sisters sue Debbie Binne lousie and rest of the team  they are all very special people dedicated to what they do

and have helped and supported me they listen they are sympathetic and so understanding you see

they care enjoy there work and are a fantastic team

as I have dialysis three times a week

they keep me alive and look after me

there all so wonderful smiling each day

Thankyou all for what you ve done for me

your all very very special people

may life treat you sweetly.

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